These past few months have been a crazy ass roller coaster ride

So many things have happened both good and bad

But over the years I’ve learned to take the positive out of every situation

There was a time where I would be semi-sad/depressed for months

MONTHS I TELL YOU!

With only little bits of happiness in between

I wasn’t happy…not really

I’ve learned a lot about myself and about people since then

I’ve discovered a new sense of who I am, what I deserve and what I’m capable of

And THAT is a very powerful and enlightening thing

Not a lot of people can say they know who they are or what it is they want out of life

I used to let others determine how I felt about myself and the way I was

I used to cater my actions to those around me in order to either

a) make them happy

b) make sure I didn’t lose them

How foolish…and sad lol

But hey you live and you learn right?

Well I have and I did

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t have to be anything less than yourself around people who supposedly care about you

I’ve learned to only surround myself with people who lift me up and make me want to be a better me

People who help me acknowledge and reach my potential

Not people who tear me down whether it be consciously on unconsciously 

I’ve learned never to blame myself or make excuses for other peoples actions…

The list goes on but I think most of all I’ve learned not to live for others

I never even realized I was doing that before until now

Now that I have a sense of clarity…

A sense of self…

A sense of peace…